2010 in 8.5hrs.

Since it's the last day of 2009, here's a reflective blog post.

I wish I could tell you exactly how the year was like but I don't remember a lot of it because time went by insanely fast.

The obvious highs were learning that my sister was pregnant with twins (a boy and a girl!) and being at the Mr. Big concert. everything else in between is a little hazy. oh I did spend like a heckload of money and that part I regret so much. But then I got pretty things with it so I really don't know what I'm trying to say here.

I made a new year's resolution but it's not even 2010 yet and I've already forgotten it. I think it was not to shop too much. Was it? Whatever it is, I have GOT to stop shopping so much anyway.

This new year's eve is also the first one in YEARS that I don't have plans. I am at home on account of an old-lady hip sprain that shoots pain down my left leg when I walk/sit for too long. I think it's supposed to deter me from checking out post-Christmas sales all around town. You know, something to help me keep my resolution.

What a day. I wake with a screwed-up hip and no plans.

Having so much free time today, I made a wishlist for 2010:

1. I'd like 2010 to be a much awesome-r year. But that's already a given since my sister is due around April.

2. I also wish that Chinese New Year will not suck as much as I fear it will. With two deaths this year from either side of my family, CNY will probably never be the same again. Luckily or unluckily for me, I wasn't that close to them. But they were still very important people to our family.

3. I hope that this last semester in school will also not suck as I fear it will. With Jeremy, Will, Ting Ting, Sarah, Jia Jia, Kevin, Barney, Janis ALL NOT GOING TO BE THERE, I think it's safe to say that the semester is going to suck to a large degree. It's not going to be a self-fulfilling prophecy. It's just that you guys are awesome and it's only obvious to assume that things are going to be blah without all of your around... you stupid poly/JC people with exemptions and early graduation.

4. I hope I have the determination and time to exercise more. Bye bye old-lady aches.

5. Cliche, but I also wish to be a better daughter, sister, friend and especially girlfriend. Ask Alvin, I can be horrible. I am not ashamed to admit that sometimes I take him for granted. I take for granted how he's always there for me and how he is willing to do every little thing for me. I am pissy at times and it's crazy how short a fuse I have. We may argue a lot but after everything, I see how patient he is and I forget to appreciate that everyday. Ah tham, I really hope I don't scare you off someday.

It's finally lunch time.

See you tomorrow, 2010.

My boyfriend.

Reflection

Sometimes don't you wish could just say anything to anyone? ANYTHING?

Sometimes I feel like screaming. sometimes people just don't get things. I am tired of spelling everything out for them.

I feel like a bitch now.

but I do think that PMS is a valid excuse.

I feel like I'm having some sort of quarter-life crisis; where you feel like nothing is going right and that you wish you could just scream and hopefully, the vibrations (whuuut) will make everything fall into place.

my post is written with bad English? I don't even have the will to do anything about it at this moment.

garlic is being fried in the kitchen right now. it smells so good. I think I'm a little happier than when I started this post. cos I love garlic.

people have their moments of solidarity, where they contemplate about life and what the hell they are REALLY doing. I have those moments when I'm driving or showering. oh but I had one when I was painting my nails just now. the appalling paint-job on my fingernails will tell you how much I have on my mind.

school, relationships with people and everything else in between.

school. this semester brought about the most disgusting work load ever since I got into UB. the second last semester. I am happy and sad at the same time.

SO happy that the work will be over soon. but sad cos I won't be around some of the most amazing people I've ever met. (note to FCC: you guys are in a different league) UB has been the most fun I've ever had in school. but 90% of my awesome friends will either be graduating early or heading over to Buffalo. school is going to be an empty shell in my final semester. I'm trying not to be emo about it. but it's not working, yo.

ok I'm gonna get ready for dinner now.

Driving "photography"

No myth at all.

"All at once, the world can overwhelm me.

There's almost nothing that you could tell me

that could ease my mind.

Which way would you run?

When it's always all around you?

And the feeling lost and found you again -

A feeling that we have no control."

Sometimes it feels like a heart is no place to be singing from at all.

Tungsten

The Konica Couple

Ahwoowoowoo.

In light of recent American Pluralism class about Native American Indians, here's a spastic picture for you:



anyway, I wish there were things I could wear in Singapore without getting stared at. like boots and jeans. and I'd love to go out wearing a scarf around my head like that ok. the whole hippie, Indian look is cool. LOL.

I bought DOLLY magazine not knowing it was kinda nonsense. those 8 bucks I'll never see again. in my defense, Miranda Kerr was on the cover and it was wrapped up. you know what's inside? posters of the JONAS BROTHERS and some other gh3y looking boy band which I can only assume is an australian one. they did have a few pages of pretty clothes but that was about it.

hi I'm at home! on account of horrid cramps.

o_O

Burnout.

BURNOUT!!

five modules in one semester is too much for my small brain.

Probably too much for Twitter.

I think I tweet too much for my own good.

I'll channel my urges here. these are a few thoughts that came too close within each other (all fewer than a 140 characters, promise): -

THE FUJIFILM INSTAX MINI IS NOT A POLAROID, STOP CALLING IT THAT, FOOLS.


I think it's cool that @fattyale is re-doing his room. Time to be all pretentiously artsy!


I think I'll watch a weepy movie tonight. But which? And I'd kill my tear ducts if I watched 'The Notebook' again.


I have a note in my hp calendar for the 18th of October that says 'MR. BIG!!'. It has an alarm. Like I'm going to forget?


Ok Popeye's, WAY BETTER than KFC, mucho gracias.


I have zero tolerance for people like you and you.

I showered with Dettol bodywash and used my Victoria's Secret vanilla and peony soap for my hands. Those two smells... do.... not... mix...

What is up with the weather?

It's been fricken cold for the past few days but today, when I got into my car I almost passed out from the heat. ok I'm not exaggerating, but I could see those little heat waves reflected on my car seats. Next time I'll take a video. So horrible.

And I think that's why I'm sick. It switches from hot to cold (like the Katy Perry song) like nobody's business here.

I am quite mad now. cos it's so hot. and because of other things that I really don't have the energy for typing now. wish me well. *sneeze.

Suggestions.

Dear Ris Low,

Seriously?

I mean, SERIOUSLY?

Your immaturity is amazing. Also, you should try (I know it'll be really hard for you but at least TRY) to get it into your thick skull that nothing you do can possibly get people to forget that you STOLE MONEY, you freak.

The poor writer of the Sunday Times. Trying hard to conceal the scoff in his writing while attempting to be impartial. I feel for him.

No one really cares about the Miss World competition anyway, do they? So here's a suggestion - take your nauseating pageant smile along with your shit-English and fling your sorry ass off a cliff.

Sincerely,
Felicia

Dinosaur Cameras

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Dear anyone who sees this! Spreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeead the word.

kthxbai!

A revelation and an apology.

I'm afraid I'm starting to become someone I really don't like.

About a week or two ago I was blaming it on PMS but now that the 'M' has come and gone, I still find myself being extremely crabby. I also haven't stopped nitpicking everything.

I don't know why I do it either.

A psychological perspective would probably be this: Maybe it's some underlying cause that is promoting some sort of mental stress. I tend to relief myself by snapping at people and being sulky all day. maybe it's school, maybe it's just SOMETHING I'm very unsatisfied with in life.

layman: I just need to stop being a beyotch.

Whatever it is, I hope I snap out of it soon. Lol.

Anyway, I think it's safe to say that I take it out on Alvin the most. He's unfortunate to always be in the line of fire. But he's still so patient and is always willing to give me a tight hug when I'm in one of my foul moods.

oh and that is the one thing that can genuinely make me a happier person - Tight hugs from Alvin.

and ok, playing with dogs. =D

instant remedies.

LOLSTER

ifs and maybes. says (2:37 AM):
i stopped **** and gambling and smoking all already
Felicia says (2:38 AM):
GOOD
Felicia says (2:38 AM):
I can began to love you again
Felicia says (2:38 AM):
HAHAHA
ifs and maybes. says (2:38 AM):
haha
ifs and maybes. says (2:38 AM):
lies, you never stopped

____________________________

I think Char is funny.

P/S '****' does not start with an 'F'
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My favourite couple.

:D

I really wonder sometimes. (This is also a rant post)

Ever had one of those days where you just sit down and start feeling sorry? haha shameless I know but I feel sorry for MYSELF TODAY.

I think perhaps I create my own problems. But then again, why should I always blame myself? screw that! sometimes I think it's YOUR fault. or maybe even yours. YAH, OR YOU.

today is one of those days.

I'm thinking about the future and I don't see everything going according to plan. which is weird because I am also THINKING about plans now right? do you know what I mean?

(It may be the PMS talking here but this'll all probably still be true after my period. HAHA)

I don't know. maybe I expect too much of people. or that I expect good things to happen too much. I'm kinda trying to change that but it looks like I'm failing.

somtimes I wonder whether my not doing or doing something would have changed things for the better.

also, I'm kinda obsessive, so perhaps it has something to do with all this.

haha.

everyone's got their demons so don't ask.

I think the pixie-dust finally wore off.

Blogshop is comingz soonz to a blog near j00.

ThAmZ KiA and I have officially set up a blog shop.

will start the propaganda after I've got everything 'swee swee'.

that's two ahlian/beng references in the last two sentences.

hexcited.

KTHXBAI

Seletar Airport

whoa mama I haven't updated in a while.

But I do have something to say today.

I went to Sunset Grill at Seletar for dinner today. on the way, WAY in, we got a bit lost and I got a little freaked. we drove to parts where there weren't even street lamps. all you saw were wide black fields and silhouettes of hut-like structures.

ugh.

but the sausages were as yummy as the drive in was scary. great stuff. the mushroom soup and steamed veggies were o-so-yummsy. I mean even Alvin enjoyed the veggies.

sigh but 50 bucks for three sausages, pork chop, soup and drinks is... sigh. for an ulu-until-cannot-ulu place with ants dancing on the table everywhere, it's quite mad.

babe, we're going to Keppel Bay next.

<3

Part deux



;D

I'll be researching.

After Roxy got sold, I kinda lost all will to do anything that day. although I kept telling myself that it's really, REALLY stupid, since she was never mine. sigh.

she wasn't like other Jack Russell Terriers. she was tame and un-crazy. but after asking around, I had many people, and even pet shop owners telling me that JRTs are extremely difficult to manage. and after giving it much thought, I decided that I should move on to another breed... preferably one that doesn't get me whacked by my parents. cos I'm thinking a JRT might leave me homeless. but. My Roxy, you were the ONE JRT that I really believed in and now you're gone. =(

anyway, on to happier things - I got the green-light from my mom and she told me she'd talk to my dad for me. YAY. but I'm still apprehensive. cos well, it's my DAD.

but as of now, I sorta decided that a Toy Poodle would be good. they are really affectionate and equally intelligent. and I've decided that I like those qualities in a dog. haha.

plus, they are super cute, so why not?



no, really. that's a real dog.

I know right.



So, as of now, toy poodles.

unless, once again, an unusual amount of people start telling me they are bad news.

:D

DAD, PLEASE SAY YES.

Roxy

Hi, world! I know this really annoying girl who always shows up at the dog farm and looks at me through my little glass panel with an expression that suggests she might break down or combust if she doesn't hold me soon.

But it's quite alright actually. she might talk to me in an equally annoying voice but at least she cuddles me and rubs me. and I like that she's really nice to me.





she likes to take a lot of pictures though. and the tiny flash of her camera phone kinda brings out that nasty blue in my eyes. I don't like that a whole lot but I know she can't switch that off and she doesn't know why. she's quite mad about that. I don't blame her.



I do hope she takes me home soon. I may be a Jack Russell Terrier but I'm not as crazy as the rest. Look! I can be a lap dog!



I really want her to take me home. :(

Stills.

Death of Summer

well not really, since it's always hot here, if you get my severely lame joke.

but anyway, Summer semester has come to a close and a bunch of you are leaving us behind. school won't be the same anymore and I blame you guys, Will, TingTing, Joyce, Barney and Janis.

truth is, I never loved school as much as I do now. well, horrible teachers and exams aside, of course. but I guess it was through all the nasty things we experienced together in school that we grew tighter as a group. but then we always knew how to remedy ill-feelings - we'd take random trips to Holland V, KAP or 6th Avenue to eat some seriously yummy food. I am going to miss that so much when you guys leave. it's nice to be in the presence of a huge group like ours.

anyway, the new and possibly most surreal semester will start in about 2 weeks. while the rest of us remaining behind figure out how to get through school with a big part of our group gone, you guys will probably be having the same set of weird feelings in Buffalo. again, your fault, but whatever.

so to Will, TingTing and Joyce:
I hope you guys settle down fast enough in Buffalo. keep warm, lest frost bite from wicked Buffalo winter get your asses. come back in one piece and we'll try to make up for lost time when you wonderful people return. =)

Semester ends in 2 days

Yes. after 2 days, we might not be seeing a lot of people ever again. a bunch of people are either flying off to Buffalo or are graduating early. SAI. and I still have slightly under a year left... if everything goes well, you know. sigh, PSY333.

but Thursday is worth looking forward to because 1. Exams are over. 2. I'm one semester closer to graduation. 3. awesome Dim Sum and then DOG FARM. =)

just had Aston's again. 2nd black pepper meal in 2 days. I'd better do some damage control or my sore throat will sneak back up on me again.

oh this morning, I saw the ninja with his phallic looking camera on the overhead bridge again. I looked at my speed-o-meter, and saw that I was going at 70-odd on the 70km/hr road. die man. I hope lightning doesn't strike the same area THREE times. I shall believe in the law of average.

on a much happier note, ASSIGNMENTS ARE OVER, YAY. no more frustrations... for now. but something tells me that next sem is going to be worse, what with Advertising. with THE Bob Armstrong.

I'm in need of a shower but I'm kinda lazy to move my ass to the bathroom. I need to wash the icky presentation off me (the rest were great but I gabra, as usual).

Victoria's Secret soap, yayyyyyyyyyyyy.

warm, bubbly goodness.

6

I was going through some photos and these are my 2 favourite FCC pictures so far:



and I especially like this:



FCCFTW.

Char, Ant, come back from the Land of Oz soon!

LOLLERSKATES

ale says (11:20 PM):
honey? how badly do you want an SX70?

Felicia says (11:21 PM):
what honey?

Felicia says (11:21 PM):
ale says (11:20 PM):
honey? how badly do you want an SX70?

^^ I dunch understanding this.

ale says (11:22 PM):
honey (also can call you darling/sweetheart), how badly do you want an SX-70? (this is a question of whether you want an SX70 badly or not)

Felicia says (11:23 PM):
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

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Sometimes I don't know what exactly my head is filled with.

ION

weird name aside, Orchard Ion is SO AWESOMMME.

*excited little girl scream

It's huge, like milllions of shops and lots of fooooooooooooood.

and I bought a bottle of 'Radioactive' nail polish. It's that kind of neon green, yah.

and:



which prompted Alvin to say, "Wah lao, not even half an hour yet leh!"

go check out Ion.

Note to self:

My wedding has to be as awesome as this.

Cryable video, I LOVE IT.

The drive home.

21 July 2009

6:11pm

Teenage Wasteland

The only thing more awesome than The Who's Baba O'Riley is Mr Big's cover of it:



91 Days to Mr Big.

My current dog breed love affair

Sigh. 3 thousand dollar breed of dogs.




=( I want.

Zoolistic - Another picture-post!

I know this was a few days ago, but who cares, the day was awesome! Some FCC members were missing though... =(

anyway,












Fooling around with panning shots:




Fooling around at char's house:



And of all the animals that we saw that day, this one is my favourite:

Peekchure post!

I love hanging out with Alvin. he's my boyfriend but he really knows how to be my best buddy.

after getting this done (which ah tham offered to pay for *glee)



at Vivo City, we headed back to his place to play with guns:






whoever shoots her down off the table first





from the far side of the room, doesnt pay for dinner! =D

AND I WON.

=D

with a fluke. he hit so many other things down after that. LOL.

then we went to s'goon gardens to eat, and parked behind



"What does eight thousand and eight on a calculator say? BOOB, YEAH, BOOB!!" - Quagmire from Family Guy.

but this is really 'BOOBS'. better. LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

anyway,



thanks for being my best bud.