2010 in 8.5hrs.

Since it's the last day of 2009, here's a reflective blog post.

I wish I could tell you exactly how the year was like but I don't remember a lot of it because time went by insanely fast.

The obvious highs were learning that my sister was pregnant with twins (a boy and a girl!) and being at the Mr. Big concert. everything else in between is a little hazy. oh I did spend like a heckload of money and that part I regret so much. But then I got pretty things with it so I really don't know what I'm trying to say here.

I made a new year's resolution but it's not even 2010 yet and I've already forgotten it. I think it was not to shop too much. Was it? Whatever it is, I have GOT to stop shopping so much anyway.

This new year's eve is also the first one in YEARS that I don't have plans. I am at home on account of an old-lady hip sprain that shoots pain down my left leg when I walk/sit for too long. I think it's supposed to deter me from checking out post-Christmas sales all around town. You know, something to help me keep my resolution.

What a day. I wake with a screwed-up hip and no plans.

Having so much free time today, I made a wishlist for 2010:

1. I'd like 2010 to be a much awesome-r year. But that's already a given since my sister is due around April.

2. I also wish that Chinese New Year will not suck as much as I fear it will. With two deaths this year from either side of my family, CNY will probably never be the same again. Luckily or unluckily for me, I wasn't that close to them. But they were still very important people to our family.

3. I hope that this last semester in school will also not suck as I fear it will. With Jeremy, Will, Ting Ting, Sarah, Jia Jia, Kevin, Barney, Janis ALL NOT GOING TO BE THERE, I think it's safe to say that the semester is going to suck to a large degree. It's not going to be a self-fulfilling prophecy. It's just that you guys are awesome and it's only obvious to assume that things are going to be blah without all of your around... you stupid poly/JC people with exemptions and early graduation.

4. I hope I have the determination and time to exercise more. Bye bye old-lady aches.

5. Cliche, but I also wish to be a better daughter, sister, friend and especially girlfriend. Ask Alvin, I can be horrible. I am not ashamed to admit that sometimes I take him for granted. I take for granted how he's always there for me and how he is willing to do every little thing for me. I am pissy at times and it's crazy how short a fuse I have. We may argue a lot but after everything, I see how patient he is and I forget to appreciate that everyday. Ah tham, I really hope I don't scare you off someday.

It's finally lunch time.

See you tomorrow, 2010.

My boyfriend.

Reflection

Sometimes don't you wish could just say anything to anyone? ANYTHING?

Sometimes I feel like screaming. sometimes people just don't get things. I am tired of spelling everything out for them.

I feel like a bitch now.

but I do think that PMS is a valid excuse.

I feel like I'm having some sort of quarter-life crisis; where you feel like nothing is going right and that you wish you could just scream and hopefully, the vibrations (whuuut) will make everything fall into place.

my post is written with bad English? I don't even have the will to do anything about it at this moment.

garlic is being fried in the kitchen right now. it smells so good. I think I'm a little happier than when I started this post. cos I love garlic.

people have their moments of solidarity, where they contemplate about life and what the hell they are REALLY doing. I have those moments when I'm driving or showering. oh but I had one when I was painting my nails just now. the appalling paint-job on my fingernails will tell you how much I have on my mind.

school, relationships with people and everything else in between.

school. this semester brought about the most disgusting work load ever since I got into UB. the second last semester. I am happy and sad at the same time.

SO happy that the work will be over soon. but sad cos I won't be around some of the most amazing people I've ever met. (note to FCC: you guys are in a different league) UB has been the most fun I've ever had in school. but 90% of my awesome friends will either be graduating early or heading over to Buffalo. school is going to be an empty shell in my final semester. I'm trying not to be emo about it. but it's not working, yo.

ok I'm gonna get ready for dinner now.